"What if I don't? What if I get worse?" The thought is enough to make him visibly shake in his brother's arms and he clings to him as if that could quell the tremors. "What if... What if you're not there one day and I..."

He stopped. He couldn't let the shadows take him that far. He couldn't!

"So uhm... Yeah that's why I'm having trouble sleeping," he said sadly. "Usually I have my journal to write all this stuff in, see..."